It's that time again. It's time to purchase more garments. I will never ever understand why they are so expensive. But for me it's just like toilet paper...you got have it!
Although I am a bit discouraged right now, I'm hanging in there. The left leg is really really large. I will get that under control within the next few days, I hope.
Looking at all the things that could have caused the sudden increase in swelling; I have come up with the following 1) It's time for new garments 2) an overwhelming work load 3) body is physically exhausted 4) mentally exhausted 5) losing steam (fighting the urge to not give up or in).
Out of all the "triggers" listed the most dangerous one is # 5 losing steam. So much of this fight is mental. I would say that "I don't know how I get the strength to go on" but that would be a lie. God is my strength and my refuge (my hiding place). So often I need and want to find a place to hide. But when I peep out of that lonely place, I will still be me so what's the point.
I am hoping to purchase new garments soon, this will alleviate most of the pain and the swelling will decrease as well. Maybe then, I will feel better. It is all a big cycle, swelling, pain, depression, swelling, pain, depression and such... is... life.
In life we will encounter some things that are beyond our control. Keeping a positive attitude and pressing on is so very important. So what do you do, when you've done all you can... you stand. DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP! ok I won't.
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