...and the beat goes on. I went on a six hour road trip (both ways) and the results... very swollen legs! So lets evaluate this thing, where did I go wrong. I know exactly where I went wrong, I just don't know how to correct it. I wrapped my legs and felt I had done it correctly, when I arrived at my destination the first thing I did was unwrap and that's where the disappointing news came into the picture. My legs (especially the left one) was so swollen. I didn't wrap it properly. The ankle was fine, mid calve was fine, just below my knee was fine but right above my ankle (bottom of the calf) was HUGE, hard and red!!! What in the world! I am having a lot of difficulty with the leg wrapping. I am also getting discouraged. As I think back I think I always have difficulty with this, but due to the magnitude of the swelling it was more obvious. What can I do about this, well I can practice more. Have I ever mentioned that the wrapping is a real work out for me? If you are reading this and you have lymphedema in the legs, then more than likely you know what I'm talking about. I feel like a contortionist!!! AAAAHHHH.
I am taking another road trip in about three weeks and this one is even longer 13 hours (both ways). It is imperative that I get this right!
I have never really addressed what happens when my legs are "out of control" (that's what I call it). Well the legs swell, get very hard and very heavy. This affects my breathing, I get tired and slothful. I get discouraged and do not want to do anything because everything involves my legs.
You know that my life consist of more than just lymphedema, so if other things are out of line also, then combined with Lymphedema my world feels shattered.
With all of this. I reach into my spiritual self... and say, this too shall pass, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, I am a conqueror, I am victorious, Greater is he that is within me than he that is in the world. See I know and I believe in my heart all that I have quoted, but the flesh in me gets weak, I stand on what I know to be true and I press on.
I am trying to stay positive but every setback seems to knock me off my feet. Yes, I get up but sometimes when you fall so much it's easy to take the attitude I'll just stay down that way I cannot fall. Is that a healthy attitude, of course not but it's reality, my reality.
I am taking another road trip in about three weeks and this one is even longer 13 hours (both ways). It is imperative that I get this right!
I have never really addressed what happens when my legs are "out of control" (that's what I call it). Well the legs swell, get very hard and very heavy. This affects my breathing, I get tired and slothful. I get discouraged and do not want to do anything because everything involves my legs.
You know that my life consist of more than just lymphedema, so if other things are out of line also, then combined with Lymphedema my world feels shattered.
With all of this. I reach into my spiritual self... and say, this too shall pass, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, I am a conqueror, I am victorious, Greater is he that is within me than he that is in the world. See I know and I believe in my heart all that I have quoted, but the flesh in me gets weak, I stand on what I know to be true and I press on.
I am trying to stay positive but every setback seems to knock me off my feet. Yes, I get up but sometimes when you fall so much it's easy to take the attitude I'll just stay down that way I cannot fall. Is that a healthy attitude, of course not but it's reality, my reality.
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