Life presents many tosses and turns as well as peaks and valleys some of which we can control and other times it is just another lesson to learn...sometimes both.
This is a difficult season (in my life). As I wade through this darkness I am trying to determine if stress is in any way connected to lymphedema. Swelling and pain is ever present and playing a big part in my mental and physical status. Along with the obvious, the heaviness of my legs causes shortness of breath. I'm not depressed just tired. After a while it just gets old...very old. Notice I said season, like the seasons; it's is my prayer that this too shall pass. I hate it when I get to the point that I have nothing to look forward to. I have never been a dreamer but if I was, this current season would defer all possibilities.
Instead of giving in to the madness I am trying to maintain my daily schedule (work, church and relationships) but even they are dwindling. But I'm holding on. I do fear that when those "constants" start to unravel, I will have nothing to hold on to and find myself slipping further into darkness.
I am comforted by the scripture: For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord...plans to give you hope and a future... Jeremiah 29:11
My thoughts for the day---Nothing is as consistent as change.
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