Well, my plan backfired! I purchased 3 pair of stockings at the same time, knowing that the time between purchases would give me a cushion. Well it's that time again and it caught me off guard. I have to buy another pair before the end of the year because of insurance deductibles. BUT the insurance company has new tricks; with out me knowing it I now have to have an evaluation (lower extremities) and new measurments (even though nothing has changed) before they will approve a claim for new garments.
I'll tell you this, when your support garments (stockings) "expire" you get almost no support at all, therefore by the end of a work day the swelling is ridiculously bad and the pain is almost excruciating. The sad thing is, I can't afford new garments right now. But I will. My father owns a thousand cattle on a thousand hills (Ha Haaaaa) and I am an heir (smile)
What I did learn from this is: 1) When I order garments not only do I have to clearly mark them Left and Right (measurements are different for each leg) but it is also a good idea to write the date on the tag of each garment. When I noticed it was time to order new stockings it was too late.
Well my song is much the same. Swelling, pain, compression, swelling, pain, compression and the beat goes on.
Sometimes I wonder what it would feel like to have a non-judgmental person gently massage my legs...while blind folded. (tears welling in my eyes). I actually used the term deformed a couple days ago when referring to my legs; lets just say that was a dark moment for me.
I understand that I have to change my way of thinking. Most of the time I am positive and very upbeat, but then there are times that I almost feel like I can't function. One thing I know for sure is, I cannot allow this to destroy me. I'm trying to push on, I really am.
I will take the first steps tomorrow towards getting new garments. I will do all I can to remain positive, I will stand on the legs I have for as long as I can and know that I am blessed always. I will...
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