I am doing fairly well today, pain is ever present but mentally I'm doing well. Both legs are swollen (more than usual) which means it's time to wrap. So, sometime within the next couple of days I will take care of that. I am so not happy, but hey such is life.
I am learning to keep going through it all (smirk), the physical, mental and social pain, all of which are closely connected to lymphedema. Sometimes I feel that it has gotten the best of me. Things I use to do, I just can't do anymore. there is a part of me that feels like I have no limitations, but that is a lie (that I tell myself)The reality of this is I do have limitations, some I put on myself, but for the most part it's just a part of my reality. The problem is I am afraid to try now.
I went out to lunch with a friend, before getting out of the car I noticed we would have to cross a very very busy street that didn't have a cross walk or light. Inside I began to get nervous and decided it would be best not to try. My friend very
nonchalantly said "we can make, if not I'll just stop the traffic for you." It was a weird feeling but as to not bring any more attention to myself and not show how terrified I was, I went along with the plan. As I crossed the street it was as if time stood still. I proceeded with out a problem.
How often do you put unnecessary restrictions on yourself? How often do you give up, without even trying? How often does fear prevent you from enjoying the simple pleasures in life? Although these are rhetorical questions. Sometimes we have to examine our own thoughts and feelings to find where we stand, so we can move forward.
...still pressing
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