I was looking at the heading and "a walk with lymphedema" kind of struck me. This is so much more than a walk. A walk sounds like a casual, pleasurable stroll this is a serious journey there is no pleasure in it. In fact I'm wondering what is the destination, how does this all end?
In my last writing I mentioned the excruciating heat at 96 degrees, well my friends it is now 101 in the shade. Another reason why hell is not in my future. It hurts to breathe. With the heat, lymphedema and asthma it's a pretty miserable time for me. However, all is not bad...you see I have a home to go to (out of the heat), I have water to hydrate my body, I have love ones to talk to, I have insurance therefore I have the meds needed for my asthma, I have not one but two legs that I walked to my vehicle on and drove home. Do you get it now?
I started this writing feeling really down, rather blah! But when I really look at the picture...the whole picture I see so many blessings. I see how it could have been worst and this alone makes me understand my walk with lymphedema. Through this blog I have walked into the life of someone who can't quite figure out the big question "why me?" I don't know the answer but I do know that although my legs are weaker than they were 2 years ago, I am stronger. I am able to push myself an extra mile (not really) but it feels like a mile. Sometimes I even do my daily routines without getting angry at myself. In case you have forgotten, the routines consist of MLD, hydration, pumping both legs for a half an hour twice daily (LymphaPress).
I have a choice and so do you! I can choose to be down, stay down and kick myself or I can get up and push one step at a time! Today I choose step (smile).
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