...and today still I learn.
As I get older I find that the lessons I'm learning were already taught and I apparently didn't get it the first, second or even third time.
Yesterday I attended a lymphedema support group meeting (we do need these kind of things, you know) and the focus was on "sleep". The facilitator asked the question how many of you get 8 hours or more of sleep per night? I proudly raised my hand because I believe in my sleep (smile). Well half way through the class I had to retract my statement. I have bouts of insomnia (don't know why and never really questioned it) I sleep with the TV on, I do everything in my bedroom, which has become my haven. All of the above is the wrong answer, and along with pain and stress, has led to many sleepless nights,
Neglecting oneself is not a sudden behavior, it is something that is gradual and often unintended. This is especially true when it comes to people who are naturally "givers". All of my life I have been a giver and a rescuer. This is a powerful gift that God has given me that allows me to positively influence the lives of many, many people and I do not take this lightly. I have had this "gift" all of my life and recognized it very early.
We have been taught that to think about ourselves is selfish and a negative thing. Well many years later, my lack of "selfishness" has caused me to totally neglect myself. I am paying for that now. I looked up and realized I put everyone before myself and I in my own eyes, I was a nobody.
One of the easiest things to do is rest...nope, that is a misconception. Some people namely myself has to be taught something as simple as how to relax and stay still. As I said in my opener I'm still learning. I have already accepted the challenge and to you I say...take care of yours!
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