Well the beat goes on! Pain is still ever present and continues to be a constant thorn in my side! Each and every day I wait for what some will call a breakthrough others may call a cure and still others may call a miracle. However you address it it still translates to a breakthrough for thousands of people...just like me.
I found myself in deep thought about how far I would go to get relief, not physically travel but what extremes am I willing to try. As I toyed with this thought for about two weeks, I resolved within myself that nothing happens by "happenstance" or coincidence, with that said I began to wonder why this thought nagged and nagged at me for weeks. I decided that enough was enough I would do anything short something satanic to alleviate at least some of this pain. Now if you know me then you know that I began to pray about it and wah laaah!
A gentleman that I've know professionally for about 6 years noticed me limping and called me aside. Let me mention that he is from one of the islands, Trinidad, Barbados, Jamaica not sure which one but a red flag went up. I know for sure that this man is a Christian (that's important information) He tells me about an ointment that has alleviate 90% of his pain with 3 weeks, oh he has my attention now! He gave me the information and told me he had just ordered some and I could buy a bottle from him...oh Jesus what am I getting myself into. So I tell him "I need to look into this first" (translation pray about it research it via Internet).
I leave him and I call a good friend, I explained everything from my thoughts weeks ago to his approach, she says what are you going to do. I take a deep breath because that is not what I wanted to hear! I wanted someone to say go for it sound legit. I email a past MLD therapist because I had to think about my legs as far as my lymphatic system...no response it's three days later, I have to make a decision, so I call my mother her response--well let me know if it works aaarrhhhh can somebody give me some concrete advise? I prayed and still unsure of what to do. I thought about the man on the roof praying for God to help him and refusing all help because he was waiting for God, when God was the one who sent the help in the form of human beings.
So ok that's it I'm going to get. I make the call, I met him and went home with this bottle of ointment. Let me add that before I pulled off I held the bottle in my hand and I prayed asking God to cover me and even if I made a ridiculous mistake that this ointment would do me no harm. See that's how we get mess up. The Bible says lean not into your own understanding. When we are desperate we do foolish things in our flesh so a sista is just trying to be careful and right in her movements. I have been using the ointment for 3 days two to three times a day and I do feel a difference. I still use the cane and if I turn the wrong I am painfully reminded that I have a condition.
I would like to end on this note: I am a testimony, waiting on the physical manifestations to show just a little bit of what God can do to you, through you and with you!
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