First let me start with a disclaimer:
I am making every effort not to call "it" my lymphedema, for I take no pride or ownership of it, I do not welcome it nor am I happy with it, so from here on in "it" will be referred to as lymphedema as though it were a stranger that invaded my body...without my consent.
Can you tell I'm not too happy about this thing?
Anyway, This is my second round of MLD. My first one was uncomfortable to say the least but this one OH MY GOODNESS. I am in either pain or some form of discomfort 85% of the time the other 15% I am asleep (and I still feel it) . I thought I was going to go in and breeze through therapy. I have never been so wrong in my life. The first session she (my therapist) casually said when you do this at home...ERK put the breaks on, I cannot do this on my own it is a complicated and detailed procedure. 3 weeks later I am learning to do it at home MLD and bandaging (seven layers of bandages that closely resembles that of a mummy). She also added the treadmill to my routine. I do not like the treadmill I have an issue with riding a bike or running in one place and not going anywhere) (it's one of the things I trip about OK?)I don't think I was ready for this. I am frustrated most of the time and yet at the same time anxious to conquer this thing. Yoda (yes Yoda) said there is no try it's do or don't so I choose to do. I will have to go though this (MLD and wrapping) again in the future but you know what, I have learned that I can do it; it's not easy, it's not fun, it's not a quick fix but I CAN and I WILL. I have to take charge of my body, the sad fact is it is me and only me, friends come and go but I will always have me. You see one thing I know for sure is I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. So to you I say...watch me, watch me grow, watch me conquer and watch me win this thing.
Remember there is no try it's do or don't!!!
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