Letters from the Storm

I can see the lightening flashing, I can hear the thunder roll...that is the lyrics to a song that expresses my current state. I stand in the storm with rain pouring on my head, I look into the grey sky with tears rolling down my cheeks, thinking that might stop you from seeing me cry, but whether you see me or not, I still cry. I know it could be worse but right now at this point in time I am having trouble dealing. See, when you are in pain, it is difficult to reason or concentrate on almost everything. Lymphedema has invaded my body, although you can only see it in my legs, my body and mind are also affected. I am told that I can go on living a "normal" life but normal has changed it's face. So today I am OK with the rain, for it hides my tears.