Today I feel trapped, trapped by a condition that restricts movement and restricts dreams.
There are times that I feel I am going to be ok, and then there are times that I wonder how can I continue on like this. At those times I have to dig deep, very deep inside and find strengths...you know, the strength that surpasses all understanding. I must admit, I cannot always see the light at the end of the tunnel and this is one of those times. This tunnel is long with winding roads, some curves that I cannot see around, therefore cannot navigate. There are surprises that I am ill prepared to handle. Occassionally there are road blocks that I didn't know existed, until I hit them. For some reason, I didn't see warning signs. So, I find myself sitting and moving nowhere.
Although my journey is with lymphedema, I imagine you have traveled this road as well. So in that sense I do not feel alone. I often wish I could hear your stories. Not that it would make my journey any shorter or less intimidating. But it might make me feel as if there is understanding out there somewhere.
I know I'm not very encouraging today, but sometimes we need to be encouraged. And still I wait (sad face)
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