My Left Leg-My walk with Lymphedema

...So I am now a member of a local support group for those who have lymphedema. This group consist of several brave men and women who have all walked in my shoes (no pun intended). I have to admit I was a little apprehensive but it has proven to be very informative, inspiring as well as therapeutic. So often I feel like I walk alone. I feel I am constantly looking for the lessons that are to be learned. As far as lymphedema is concerned, I must admit I am a good patient. I follow all of the instructions, do the exercises and pump my legs. But still, I am expecting something. What I'm expecting I don't know. I do not want to deal with this my entire life. I don't want to take short steps, I don't want to be in pain. If I do what I am supposed to do then there should be some rewards...right? I am told that anger is a natural part of healing. OK I have endured the pain now where is the healing? I cried to the Lord to remove this thorn, yes His grace is sufficient. Healing where art thou.